Huge apologies for the radio silence, I haven’t written much lately, not because I have writers block, but because life has just ever so slightly gotten in the way. I have started a few different blog posts, a bit more emotive than my usual waffle and I want to do them justice, but inadvertently I put everything else on hold in the meantime.
I’ve developed something of a ‘fuck it, let’s just go for it’ mentality
Since my last post, I have gone through somewhat of a mini midlife crisis. I’m not sure whether it’s age related, but I’ve developed something of a ‘fuck it, let’s just go for it’ mentality.
Included in the list of things I have recently done are getting three tattoos (and wanting more). One on the side of my wrist, one on my other wrist and another just underneath the crease of my inner elbow.
I’ll report back shortly to let you know if it’s true that blondes do have more fun!
I’ve also had a few ear piercings and decided that it was time for a change with my hair and so I thought ‘fuck it’ and switched from being a brunette to being a blonde. It’s taking some getting used to, as I haven't been a blonde now for approximately 18 years, but I don’t regret it. It’s crazy how much your make-up and clothing are influenced by your hair colour though! I’ll report back shortly to let you know if it’s true that blondes do have more fun!
In addition to this, I also took the plunge and got semi-permanent lip liner and blush done. It’s something I’d been thinking about for a while as the sides of my upper lip lack in the shade and definition department. I’ve had lip filler in the past, but this has never really corrected the issue and once the swelling goes down, I find I'm always left wanting more.
I booked in with my friend Nicola for my lips, as she’s set up a successful business specialising in treatments such as this. I’m due to have a top up in a few weeks time, but already I feel like this has been one of the best decisions I’ve made and one of the most worthwhile treatments ever! I’ve been taking before and after pics so I’ll write a post very soon about this to give you the full details and show you the finished, healed result.
I am most definitely not Mrs Hinch, I'm not anywhere remotely even close!
At home, I finally admitted defeat and realised that I am most definitely not Mrs Hinch, I'm not anywhere remotely even close! So I decided ‘fuck it, let’s get a cleaner’! Dean and I both work full time jobs, I run a business on the side, we love spending as much quality time with the kids as possible aswell as maintaining our own social lives (and sanity) so the thing that always slips, is the housework. Our cleaner is popping by fortnightly for two hour spring cleans, which is exactly what we need to keep the house spick and span and to help build that much needed momentum to keep the house nice in between.
I’m not sure why I’ve started worrying less recently and have started doing the things that normally I would think twice, or a hundred times about before eventually talking myself out of them entirely. Yes I’m not getting any younger, in a couple of years I’ll be planning my 40th and this does scare me quite a bit.
As I’ve gotten older, my perception on life and things in general has changed a lot. Maybe it comes with having kids and seeing how quickly they’re growing. Time stands still for no-one and life can be so hard at times.
I never want to look back and wish I’d just though ‘fuck it’ and done all of the little things I wanted to do whilst I had the chance.
Of late I’ve seen more people my age, including people who I know, becoming really poorly. A lot of people I know are battling with their mental health and a very small number chose to take matters into their own hands or felt there was no other way for them to carry on, which is utterly heartbreaking.
Nobody knows what’s round the corner and that scares me more than going to get a tattoo that I’ve wanted for ages, or switching things up a bit by overhauling my hair colour. I never want to look back and wish I’d just though ‘fuck it’ and done all of the little things I wanted to do whilst I had the chance.
If anyone else has been going through something similar, I’d love to know so that I’m aware it’s not just me feeling this way. Who knows, maybe we can set up a support group linked to mid to late 30's rebellion and living our best lives?!